Out-Rage

Too long.
Sup guys.
Miss me? ; u ;
Sorry for the super long absence. I've been busy with college and life in general lately; it's all gotten pretty crazy. Lots of hard classes, going to graduate in about three semesters, boys ugh, home stuff, etc.
I've drawn some since last time, though mainly doodles and sketches. But I'll throw some of them up anyway.
I've been thinking of making an art tumblr lately, but I haven't yet. I'll post another journal with the url if I do.

If you don't want to read my long rant of not knowing what I want to do with my life, just skip to the bottom bolded part for the awesome announcement.

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So for the last couple of years, whenever someone would ask me what I wanted to do for a living, this was my answer: Become and English teacher for high school or college and work on my nature photography during the summers.
Well, that was more or less a coverup. Just something I could say to hide the fact that, excuse my language, I have no idea what the fuck I want to do with my life.

See, I love my photography. It's the one thing that I love doing no matter when, where, or how I'm feeling. I just get lost in some other world whenever I'm following a bird, or find new and interesting scenery. It's something that genuinely makes me happy, and I love practicing it and learning new things for it. However, photography is tricky business. Until you become highly known, it doesn't exactly pay well.

So I've been thinking of jobs that I could do that would give me time to work on that, and that I would actually enjoy. My first thought was a teacher, since they get most of the summer off. The more I think about it though, the less I want to do that. I love writing, and I can be a stickler for grammar. But after looking at the classes that I would have to take, it just fills me with such boredom that I want to crawl under something. So, I thought about art. Well, since they're taking art out of schools now, it would be hard to find a job. They also don't pay too well. I've thought of other careers that I might enjoy (welding, mechanics, woodworking, wedding/people photographer, chef), but they just don't....strike me as something I'd be wanting to do for the rest of my life if my photography career doesn't take off.
Now here's the new part. I've uploaded some of the animal inspired dresses I've designed. It was something I decided to do out of the blue, and it went extremely well. I actually enjoyed it a lot. I took a few requests, including a koala one for one of the students a year behind me. He works a lot with the theaters and is into drama. He recently started a drama club at our school that will start up, I'm assuming, this coming year. He asked if I would be the head of the costume department. I gladly accepted, and also offered my photographic skills as well. (I also may be taking a few parts. Haha...oh boy....I only accepted that to maybe help get over my anxiety of speaking in front of other people).

After accepting the job, I started thinking. What about becoming either a freelance or residential costume designer as a living? I tried to look into it, but there seems to be different opinions and no straight answer of how well they are paid. I guess it just depends on who you're working for. A designer for a play in a small town would certainly get paid less than someone designing a completely original costume for a broadway play. I would also have to work my way up the ladder. Working as a seamstress or something first, then a pattern maker, etc. But, as I'm going to be getting experience now, and I have so many opportunities (with the new fine arts building in town and such good schools for the arts so close), I think I could really go far with this.

I just really need some more opinions. I could ask my family, but my mom is more concerned with money than whether I'll like it or not because she thinks that no one really likes their job, my dad is basically the opposite and would support me with whatever job I had if I liked it even if it paid a dollar an hour, my grandma is about the same way, and the rest of my family...Well...Not to say that they wouldn't be serious about it, or that I don't trust them, but I'm not sure I want to base my life career on their opinions.

Now usually I wouldn't be worrying too much about this, but as I am going into my junior year of early college, I'm getting to the point that I will be having to pick classes and electives that correspond to my future job. See my dilemma?

I just wanted to get a few opinions and write this down to get it off my mind.

Plus, maybe if this account is famous one day, my new watchers can look back and see how hard it was for me to choose whatever I end up doing. xD

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Now for those who didn't want to read all that:
I got a job as the head of costumes/costume design/photography for my school's new drama club. I'll probably be uploading pictures of my work and of their performances here once we get started. The boy that asked me to do this might also be able to get me a similar job for our towns fine arts center. Yaaaay! c:

I still have like 6 freebie drawings that I promised.
I'm so wiped from my family being here and I really want to write, not draw, right now.

I don't know what to do. I'll feel like crap if I don't do these freebs but ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh just thinking of picking up my tablet makes me want to crawl under a rock. And if I even try to draw while feeling like this, they'll turn out horrible.
HALP.

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Well, I was grounded from everything for the last week or so. So, in that time I literally had nothing to do but chores, draw, or read. Drawing won most of the time. So I finally started my drawing studies. (Wow, it really took all that to get me to practice .__.) So yeah. I'll be uploading a huge sketch dump of all the figures, sketches, pose studies and blah blah blah I did. I also think I got some real drawings done...I can't really remember. I know I did get one of a humanized Mordecai and Rigby done, or as much done as I could without a reference.

I also need to make a floor plan or something of Zach's mansion. I keep forgetting how it's laid out and where everything is.

I could've sworn there was A LOT more (intelligible) stuff I was going to write in here, but it's midnight and I'm wiped. I have poo brain. -insert Jake gif here-


Also, I suck at making titles.